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October 1997   ~  Volume 1, Number 1
(Premiere issue)

Picture of Divine Mother Audrey at Video Premier
Divine Mother Audrey at Video Premiere
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Picture of Nelson and the Spiritual Family at 927
Nelson and the Spiritual Family renovating 927
Divine Mother Audrey
Closes Her Law Practice

Video Premiere

The Internet & Lectures

Coast To Coast Travel

Annual August Celebration

Divine Mother Audrey's Message Testimony
Divine Mother Audrey's Message:
Overview of this Path
Roberta Christianson's Testimony

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Divine Mother Audrey with Ted Kanamori, Jimmy Tamashiro, Val Valentine, Tatou Mehta, and Joyce Volen Ted Kanamori (Maui), Jimmy Tamashiro (L.A.), Divine Mother Audrey, Val Valentine (Australia), Tatou Mehta (New Jersey) and Joyce Volen (San Francisco) at the Grand Opening.


     After twenty years of maintaining a highly successful law practice, Divine Mother Audrey concluded her career on November 30, 1996.  She now devotes herself completely to serving God.  From the time that Divine Mother left her body on May 22, 1992, to the closing of her practice, Divine Mother Audrey lived an impossible life taking care of the spiritual family as well as her clients.  Divine Mother Audrey left her practice without fanfare, and the spiritual family knew of her decision when she asked a few members to help her vacate her office.

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     On February 9, 1997, the Spiritual Family gathered for the Premiere showing of the video, "Sri Ramakrishna: Embracing The Divine". Divine Mother Audrey taped this video to introduce people to this path. Dr. Elizabeth Kunimoto, Chairperson of the Department of Communications, produced the video at the University of Hawaii. The video was shown at the university’s art auditorium, which was packed to its 350-seat capacity. Spiritual family members from Los Angeles, San Francisco, Maui, Kauai, and Kona joined us. Jon Anderson sang three of his beautiful songs.

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     Through the sponsorship of the National Endowment of the Humanities, Divine Mother Audrey was discussion leader for the month of January on Pluralism and Spirituality In America. Divine Mother Audrey was invited to continue with her participation for the month of February. The topic for that month was Pluralism and Self Identity

    Divine Mother Audrey gave four lectures at the University of Hawaii, two lectures at West Florida University, and one lecture to the Philippine Medical Association at Honolulu Hale, (Honolulu's City Hall). The presentations at Honolulu Hale and the University of Hawaii on September 18, 1997, are available on videotape.

     The Internet and university presentations were made possible through the invitation of Dr. Elizabeth Kunimoto. The Honolulu Hale presentation was made possible through the invitation of Drs. Jose and Gloria Madamba.

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    On May 13, 1997, Divine Mother Audrey departed from Honolulu to meet with spiritual family members coast to coast. She held meditations and Intensives at Jimmy Tamashiro's home in Los Angeles, at Tatou and Sudhir Mehta's home in Long Valley, New Jersey; at Tom Farkash's home in Gainesville, Florida; and, at Reiko Hayashi's home in San Francisco.

     Prior to her departure, and upon her return, Divine Mother Audrey held Intensives for the Honolulu spiritual family.

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     In keeping with a tradition established by Divine Mother, the spiritual family holds an annual celebration in August on the Saturday closest to the 15th day of that month, in remembrance of the day that Sri Ramakrishna left his body. The celebration has grown larger every year as members of the spiritual family from all over the world gather together to "homogenize" with each other, as Divine Mother asked us to do shortly before she died. Special meditations and Intensives were held for a ten-day period before and after the celebration. "Welcome" and "aloha" picnics were also held to give everyone a greater opportunity to share and get to know their spiritual brothers and sisters from around the world.

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Divine Mother Audrey's Message

     Many people have asked for more information about this path. In response to the inquiries, a brief overview is presented below.

Divine Mother

Divine Mother

     On July 13, 1914, Divine Mother was born in the little sugar town of Waipahu on the Island of Oahu, in Hawaii. She was the second of eight children. Her family was very poor, and could only afford to send her to school up through the eighth grade.  Throughout childhood, Divine Mother was deeply spiritual, and always prayed for others. She was sent to work as a maid, and later married. She had five children, and remained at home to care for the family. Around 1972, a divine messenger appeared to Divine Mother, and told Divine Mother that Sri Ramakrishna had sent her to show Divine Mother how to give God’s message for this age.

Sri Ramakrishna

Sri Ramakrishna

     Sri Ramakrishna was an avatar, a divine incarnation of God who was born in India in 1836, and died on August 15, 1886. Sri Ramakrishna came to harmonize all religions. He said, "I am the string running through all the pearls," (the pearls being the individual religions of the world). Sri Ramakrishna manifested God’s pure love and taught universal tolerance and respect for all religions. God Is One, though men call Him by different names, and it is His Life that resides in each person. Sri Ramakrishna did not want us to lose sight of this eternal truth by getting enmeshed in dogmas, sects or creeds. He wanted us to live daily, the inherent messages that the perfect masters gave throughout the ages: God is love, peace, and compassion. In spiritual realization, we can know our divine nature, which transcends all religions.

     Divine Mother was told that her message was meant for the householders; those who marry, have children, work and carry the burdens of living in the world to support their families. Divine Mother said that our true purpose in life is to realize God. By the example of her own life, she showed us how to realize God in the midst of raising a family. Divine Mother said that the simplest way to realize God is to have love and devotion to Him; to love God first, above everything else.

     I met Divine Mother in the summer of 1973. I graduated from college in California, and spent the summer at home in Honolulu, where I was born and raised. My summer job had ended, and I was on my way to Boston to attend law school. A friend told me that she wanted me to meet Divine Mother, because she felt I was searching for God. I had been a seeker my whole life.

     I had no preconceived ideas about what would happen. When I met Divine Mother, she was a charming, petite Japanese lady, who spoke very rapidly. We sat together for several hours. I said very little. Divine Mother told me all about herself. She even told me about the messenger who was sent to her. However, she never once mentioned Sri Ramakrishna to me. By the end of our meeting, she had totally captured my heart. For the first time in my life, I felt completely loved and understood, even though I had hardly said a word. At the end of our meeting, I thanked Divine Mother, wrote down her address, and departed for law school. While there, I began to correspond with her. She touched my heart in a way that had never been touched before. I longed to be with her, and could not get her out of my mind.

     One day, while in my first semester at law school, I opened the yellow pages to "churches." My finger ran down the columns, and stopped at the Ramakrishna Vedanta Society. I called the number, received instructions on how to locate the church, and caught the trolley there. I was introduced to Sri Ramakrishna by Swami Sarvagatananda. When I heard about Sri Ramakrishna, I instantly accepted Him as my Chosen Ideal. I eagerly wrote to Divine Mother about having found my Chosen Ideal, and she was overjoyed to learn that I had found Sri Ramakrishna on my own, and that I had accepted Him. Little did I know that Sri Ramakrishna was coming through Divine Mother for these modern times. Once I told Divine Mother about finding Sri Ramakrishna, I was amazed to hear her tell me things about Him. Since Divine Mother only had an eighth-grade education, how could she be so well versed about someone of whom I had never heard, even though I was a student of philosophy and religion? I knew then that Divine Mother was extraordinary.

     I returned home each summer from law school, eager to spend every possible moment with Divine Mother. When I finally graduated, I happily returned home for good. Over the years, I saw the magnificence of God's love in action in the ordinariness of daily life with Divine Mother. There was pure love in everything she did. There was love in the way she poured a cup of coffee, invited people in to have lunch or dinner with her, the way in which she prepared meals with her own hands, and washed the dishes and clothes. Even though there were many people around her much of the time, Divine Mother had a way of making each person feel special, and loved. We hung on to every word that came out of her mouth, these beautiful messages, which were transmitted directly to our hearts. Each meditation with Divine Mother was cherished. God gave her the gift to silence the mind. As we meditated with her, we were being transformed effortlessly, as fears and worries dropped away. Divine Mother said she had the key to awaken our spiritual consciousness, and indeed God became alive in our hearts.

     Divine Mother gave us an inherent understanding of spirituality, which was direct and simple. We never engaged in rituals, or pored over scriptures or texts. She took us directly to Spirit, without any external distractions and immersed us in God's peace, so silent and still. She always said that she worked with God's Light, and was transmitting His Light to us. She said that she was not engaging with us "mind to mind," but purely "spirit to spirit," "infinite to infinite." In a letter that Divine Mother sent to me in 1974, she said, "I'm only to serve God's children, and whoever comes to me, I'll show them they are God's children, eternal, immortal, and the real guru is within."

     Divine Mother left the body on May 22, 1992. Before she left, she gave me her power of attorney and said, "Audrey, you carry Sri Ramakrishna's Light to the world for Me." This Light is to be taken to God's children who hunger and thirst to know Him, and long to understand Him in daily life. Everywhere, people are suffering in their alienation from God and are looking for love, understanding, and acceptance, but in things outside of themselves. We must come within, for God is already sitting in our hearts the closest to us of all, and we must enter this sacred chamber to find Him there. This is the journey back to the Godself.

     I gave up my law practice in November of 1996, and now devote myself fully to serving God. I travel all over the world sharing with others the beautiful love and light that Divine Mother gave to me. I have visited with spiritual family in Los Angeles, New Jersey, Florida, San Francisco, Maui, Big Island and Australia. There will be more traveling down the road.

     Meditations are held six days a week in Honolulu and weekly in Los Angeles; San Francisco; Long Valley, New Jersey; Townsville, Australia; and Kula, Maui. More homes will be opened for meditation and sharing as the spiritual family continues to grow.

     If you would like to know more, please contact me as follows:

Audrey E. Kitagawa
Telephone: (212) 832-6697

May God bless you and keep you
in His infinite love and peace.

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Roberta Christianson's Testimony

Roberta Christianson
Roberta Christianson of the Honolulu Spiritual Family

   For most of my fifty years of living, I have never really been happy. Since my childhood days in Hawaii I was a prisoner to my fear, panic, and despair about life. I felt isolated and lonely and could never escape the pain of a dysfunctional childhood in which an abusive father aroused continual fear in my mother, brother, and myself. I cannot remember many moments of safety in my childhood.
    While living in the mainland, I turned to a marriage to fill the emotional void I felt as a child, but instead found myself clinging to an equally dysfunctional partner. I allowed my husband to demean and undermine me until my self-esteem gradually eroded. As I look back, it was unbelievable how little I respected myself and how much I suffered by craving love from someone who could not even help himself. I subjected myself to mental abuse for 27 years, and at the end of the marriage, which culminated in divorce, I was a nervous wreck and had no idea who I really was.
    In 1988, I met Divine Mother in Hawaii. From then on my life changed. Divine Mother was the most unpretentious and humble person I have ever met. She was human, yet Divine. When she walked through her kitchen, it was as though she were floating. In a powerful meditation with her I experienced the breaking of huge chains.
     Throughout my life I had turned to religion and realized that only God could fill the void. Still then, even in religion, I was flooded with fear. God was always a stranger to myself. I felt forever bound to rituals to atone for my "karma". But Divine Mother changed me so that I no longer experience the "terror" of God, but rather the saving, loving grace of God.
    In Divine Mother's Presence, I felt more peaceful, and gradually, the deep, ongoing panic within me was erased. Through Divine Mother's Love, God began to break the thick chains of bondage of destructive family patterns and negative memories that were embedded in my very cells. Only God could have disentangled the intricate mess of our family patterns and my inner turmoil. She freed my soul from bondage, so that I could at last find joy in loving and praising God.
    I found courage with which to face my inner demons. As Divine Mother's Light penetrated my consciousness, I became painfully aware of how much I had prevented my children from ever having their own childhood; my unhappy state became their focus, and they felt compelled to take care of me because of my debilitated state.  How could they have ever experienced normal childhood? I had been very selfish to bind my children to me in such unhealthy, dysfunctional, and abusive ways. I had robbed my children, such beautiful souls, of their childhoods.  My heart ached with grief for what I had done to them.
    Divine Mother saved my relationship with my children. Without Divine Mother in our lives, we would not be a harmonious family as we are now. When she came into my life, the children sensed I had changed.  I was no longer a mother who was dominated by neediness and self-absorption.
    Divine Mother must have read my heart, for both grown children moved to Hawaii most of all to be with Divine Mother, who was to give them the purest love they have ever experienced. And through the Love Divine Mother imparted to me, I was able to become more of a true mother.  Divine Mother guided me safely through many self-discoveries, which ordinarily would be too painful to bear, and helped to transform my consciousness so that I could be present for my children. Both children were able to expunge their childhood rage in the security of her Love. Miraculously, I was able to acknowledge the hurt I had caused them. Through this process, each one of us became happier and stronger.
        Thank You, Divine Mother, for your indescribable, transformative Divine Love, which has brought me, and my family to our wholesomeness.  You are my true Divine Mother, my Beloved Divine Mother for all eternity.

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