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Divine Mother Audrey on Maui. Back row: Sudhir Mehta, James Tamashiro and Lloyd Nakamura, front
row: Tatou Mehta, Jan Tamashiro and Cheryl Asato.
||Joining Divine Mother Audrey at the
Maui meditation was Tom and Nellie Taise. The spiritual family sang "Happy
Birthday" and had cake with Tom on his birthday.
||Roberta, John and
Sarah Christianson happily work on mailing out the Christmas newsletter.
James and Jan Tamashiro, Lloyd and Becky Nakamura, and Cheryl Asato from Los Angeles, Ted
and Wendy Kanamori and their children from Maui, Tatou Mehta from New Jersey, Sudhir Mehta
from Jakarta and Michael Mansfield from Minnesota, came to Honolulu to celebrate the
holidays. Special meditations were held while they were in town, and the New Year was
welcomed in with the spiritual family meditating. Thank you for travelling from far away
places to make this time together so special!
All of the out of towners and many other members of the spiritual
family went to Ted and Wendy Kanamori's home on Kula, Maui for more meditation on January
3rd and 4th. The Kanamori's are always such gracious and generous hosts. Thank you, Ted
and Wendy! The spiritual family also celebrated Tom Taise's 78th birthday on Maui. Tom
said, "This is my best birthday ever! I am grateful to God for all of the changes in
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HAPPY NEW YEAR! WELCOME 1998
The cusp that exists between the end of
the old year and the beginning of the new year is a gentle twilight that draws us into its
folds for quiet, deep reflection. It is usually the time we commit to making changes and
improvements within ourselves so our lives may become more meaningful and worthwhile. It
is easy to get caught in the daily busyness of work and routines that blur the days
together into a fog of forgetting.
Meditation provides us with the opportunity to return to
ourselves, to the spirit within us that is the source of our renewal and guidance. Each
moment that we live is the grace of God, the very breath we take, the breath of God. Let
us spend this time to review the past year, and see all of the changes that have taken
place within our lives; remarkable changes.
I see the beautiful faces of the spiritual family. Each face unique, and
the unforgettable eyes that are the windows to the heart of each person. I see the blazing Love of God behind the veils of fear, loneliness, sadness, anger and pain, and I rejoice
in the knowing that each person will plumb the depths of his or her heart to eventually
reach this pure Love.
I recall those blessed ones who could not even stand to see
themselves in the mirror, now finding self-acceptance, and self-approval; the ones who
were so shut down, now blossoming and speaking up; the ones who were so far away from
their feelings, now shedding tears and dropping their armor; the ones who were trapped in
dark secrets, now free from the power of the secrets; the ones who were being abused and
were perpetrators of abuse, now finding their dignity and self respect; the ones who held
resolutely to old habits and mental conditioning, now letting go of their rigidity.
I treasure those moments of sharing where we laid bare our
hearts, and pretense fell away. All that remained was raw courage to trust that the
compassion in each person's heart bearing witness to the sharing would reach out and
surround those present, and it did. Our capacity to love and to express love is so
infinite and grand! Everywhere people are looking for this love, and the intimacy that
comes from such honesty and genuineness. I bow my head, and am humbled by these courageous
souls who deepen our love, and help to create an ever increasing potential within the
spiritual family to provide this love to others.
Divine Mother told me at my first meeting with her, "Don't
sit on the sidewalk." I understood that she did not want us to stagnate, or to become
complacent in our spiritual growth. Life is continuous, and we must ever expand our
consciousness into the infinite realm of the divine. This is made possible through love
and devotion to God.
In the beautiful poem, the Bhagavad Gita, in the discourse
between Lord Krishna and his friend, Arjuna, Sri Krishna answers Arjuna's question posed
to Him as follows:
"Some worship you with steadfast love. Others worship God the unmanifest and
changeless. Which kind of devotee has the greater understanding of yoga?
Those whose minds are fixed on Me in steadfast love, worshipping Me with absolute faith, I
consider them to have the greater understanding of yoga...
Quickly I come
To those who offer Me
Worship Me only,
Their dearest delight,
With devotion undaunted.
Because they love me
They are my bondsmen
And I shall save them
From mortal sorrow
And all the waves
Of life's deathly ocean.
Be absorbed in Me,
Lodge your mind in Me:
Thus you shall dwell in Me,
Do not doubt it,
Here and hereafter...
A man should not hate any
living creature. Let him be friendly and compassionate to all. He must free himself from
the delusion of "I" and "mine." He must accept pleasure and pain with
equal tranquility. He must be forgiving, ever contented, self-controlled, united
constantly with Me in meditation. His resolve must be unshakable. He must be dedicated to
Me in intellect and in mind. Such a devotee is dear to Me...
His mind is fixed upon Me,
and his heart is full of devotion. He is dear to Me...
...Regard Me as your
dearest loved one. Know Me to be your only refuge. Be united always in heart and
consciousness with Me...
||Give Me your whole
Love and adore Me,
Worship Me always,
Bow to Me only,
And you shall find Me:
This is My promise
Who love you dearly..."
It is easy to lose sight of our priorities as we become immersed in the hustle and bustle
of daily life, and the mind strives to acquire the fruits of creation. But, in that
twilight between the old and new year, between the dusk and dawn of each passing day, let
the fire of God's Love that burns within our hearts propel us to seek eternal union with
Him. God's pure Love draws us into Him, like the inexplicable magnet that draws the moth
to the flame, and extinguishes its separateness from that light by merging into it.
May l998 and every year be a celebration of the beautiful dance
that moves us closer and closer to God realization. May each experience that the new year
brings become stepping stones to ever greater love. Happy New Year!
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All my life
I procrastinated by not doing many small and a few big things in life. The main reason I
procrastinated was my fear of failure- fear of losing what I had and fear of getting what
I didn't want. Yet Divine Mother Audrey and Divine Mother have been so gracious to give me a wonderful
taste of the joy and inner peace that comes through accepting all that happens in life, even losing my job. As a result, my new year resolution is to be proactive in daily life
to practice love and devotion to God by doing small and big things cheerfully, thoroughly,
quickly, and with humility.
Make God first and love Him. Practice humility,
acceptance and flexibility. Take responsibility. Speak the truth with love and compassion.
Share Divine Mother Audrey's infinite Love with everyone.
I resolve to choose love in each moment.
San Francisco, CA
To practice forgiveness and to see God's hand in
every moment of my life.
To have Divine Mother and Divine Mother Audrey with me in my daily
Be a good example of having Divine Mother's Love by
always being joyful.
Change myself more and more by love and devotion to
Be strong in God and to continue practicing to speak
the Truth and not pamper the ego.
I resolve to keep doing the self examination, get in
touch with my feelings and be more "in the moment"—because I know that in order
to serve Divine Mother Audrey and shine Divine Mother's Light, I must be purified; and the purification
comes, in part, from the discipline of truth-seeking and spiritual practice.
To always love and make God first and to practice
love and devotion. Also, to give love to my daughters.
To listen with my heart, acknowledge feelings (my
own, as well as others), and to speak heart to heart.
I resolve to practice to be true to my Godself and
to refrain from being a people pleaser.
Be alert, (be in the moment), and do not
My resolution is to support and serve Divine Mother Audrey and
give love with compassion and understanding to my husband, my children, and those around
me. Thank You, God and Divine Mother, for the realization and the opportunity to do this.
Be able to speak the truth in the moment.
I resolve to love Divine Mother more!
Practice, practice, practice.
Since coming to the path I have grown in awareness
and compassion. Reflecting back, I am grateful for the changes in my life, a feeling shared
by those closest to me who knew me before, specifically, my wife and children. This year
has been significant for the intensity of self-examination, and getting in touch with past
and current feelings. Thank you for your guidance. With this painfully honest look at my
past and current abusive treatment and behavior, I can no longer act this way. I resolve
to change my abusive behavior pattern, replacing it with more wholesome behavior. This is
becoming possible with the help of God. Thank you.
My New Year's resolution is to practice
I resolve this New Year to cultivate humility and
flexibility, true love, devotion and gratitude to God first.
My New Year's resolution is to listen to my heart.
By following the voice of God in my heart, I can be free of the tendencies of being swayed
by outside influences.
Make God first in my daily life, Love Him.
I will share each awareness as it comes up and not
withhold anything. I will dive deep and share whatever is inside of me.
By the will of God, Divine Mother's grace, and the Light of Divine Mother Audrey's guidance, I resolve to get up off the floor, stay off the floor and live
my life with dignity and self-respect and become a better example for my children.
I commit to change by practicing and concentrating
on God with love and devotion, by telling the truth; remembering time and place, by
listening with my heart and saying, "Yes, thank you."
With Divine Mother's grace, I resolve to be a better
example for Sri Ramakrishna.
To praise God for everything; good or bad, right or
To love God first, each day putting my head on the
floor, offering all my concerns to Divine Mother, asking her to grant awareness and a
humble heart full of love and devotion, so I can listen to her in my heart, and follow her
will, not mine.
I will face the new year with a grateful heart and
enjoy each day as a special day that Divine Mother had planned just for me.
Los Angeles, CA
To love and support Divine Mother Audrey first, to be grateful,
humble and willing to change, and to shine the Light through example.
To ask for more humility that I may truly give up
having things my way and to accept the way God wants it to be. Let it be. Thank you
Divine Mother and Divine Mother Audrey for restoring my life.
I would like to have a kind and compassionate heart
and have feelings for others rather than being focused on my little, ego self. Thank you,
Divine Mother Audrey, for showing us the way.
To be truthful, respect my Godself, and above all,
practice loving and being grateful to Divine Mother.
With all my heart I will practice being "shan-shan" (i.e. "just do it") as opposed to procrastinating.
The prescriptions given to us are so precious and
personalized. Thank you. I will keep the prescriptions in my heart and continue to
practice throughout the year.
To tell the truth in the moment with humility. Thank
you so much Divine Mother and Divine Mother Audrey for your deep Love, which is helping me to face myself
and my past actions.
Practice speaking the truth on how I feel "in
the moment." I feel by doing this, I can respect my Godself more and more which I
could never have done without Sri Ramakrishna, Divine Mother and Divine Mother Audrey. I know then that
I can support Divine Mother Audrey more and love Divine Mother as much as she loves me.
To do my one-third with gratefulness and joy so that
Divine Mother Audrey can go out into the world and give her precious energy to the millions who need her
and Divine Mother. Thank you, Divine Mother for leaving us Divine Mother Audrey.
To apply all the spiritual awareness I have received
to my daily life, consistently. I feel I have received so much from both Divine Mother and
Divine Mother Audrey that it's about time I start giving back.
To practice true devotion to Divine Mother by
accepting everything that happens in my life.
To have more compassion for everyone.
To love God first, and to practice patience, love
To practice making God first.
I resolve to be more "God centered" in my
life; to put a conscious effort to put God, and the spiritual family in my heart,
especially during times of stress, anger, and fear so my wife, children and others who
come into contact with me will feel God's Light, Love and blessings. I also resolve to let
God work through my music to create songs that will touch people's hearts and shine God's
Rancho Santa Margarita, CA
To understand more and lose the desire to be
Redondo Beach, CA
To love God with my whole heart, to be less
stubborn, to be more willing to change, and to trust my heart.
Fountain Valley, CA
To assume responsibility and change the many habits
To be in God's Love and peace in devotion and gratefulness.
Redwood City, CA
I am willing to hold onto Divine Mother and listen
with my heart and let her reveal to me what I need to know.
Fountain Valley, CA
To smile more. My smile is a way to show how
grateful I am to have met Divine Mother, and to experience God's pure Love through her and
Divine Mother Audrey.
Los Angeles, CA
To always live in the moment and let go and let God.
God is the Doer, not us. I have finally experienced this and know it is the truth.
Marina del Rey, CA
To remember myself when doing things for others. I
need to realize that before I can help others, I need to find myself. And I know from the
past years that if I remain connected to God, I will always be helped.
To do everything as if it were for Divine Mother Audrey.
I look forward to being steadfast in the truth and
to be a shining example of Divine Mother's Love.
Just do it! This resolution will help me find more
of myself and become closer to God. I am grateful to be who I am.
To focus on God within, know the truth and stand
firmly in the truth.
I will be more open and express my true feelings to
I resolve to be more open, compassionate and
Los Angeles, CA
To be grateful to God throughout the day for the
experiences and awarenesses I am receiving.
Pacific Grove, CA
To continue to let go of habits and attitudes that
no longer serve me.
Los Angeles, CA
Practice to have the courage to face myself.
To stop putting myself down. Divine Mother Audrey, with her
infinite Love and kindness, lit a spark of self-worth within my heart, and now I want to go
through life with my head up. Thank you, Divine Mother Audrey, for such a precious gift.
With so much Love given to us by Divine Mother Audrey, we can't
sit and be complacent. I ask Divine Mother for help to make us stronger in our faith, to
be open in our expressions, and to have more compassion for others.
I resolve to always treasure the Love of God.
I will follow my heart, and not my mind because the
mind is limited and the heart is infinite.
To take better care of my body with healthful foods,
Shaklee products, and regular exercise. With a strong, healthy body, I hope to be able to
serve God with more energy and focus.
To be quiet; to listen for the voice of God, deep
within, and to feel and bask in His everlasting and unconditional Love.
Palo Alto, CA
I wish to give my heart to Divine Mother with
Love and devotion to God first, head to the floor in
humility, and tell the truth!
To continue sharing the love with my family which
Divine Mother has so freely given to me. I will never forget how she freed me from
worrying about my little self.
To get off the tip of my nose and be grateful.
Mary Ann Ram
Seal Beach, CA
Keep practicing loving Divine Mother and opening my
heart to her.
Express my feelings more, so I can find my voice and
find my Godself.
Los Angeles, CA
Love God first, be grateful for all that I have
received from Divine Mother; be humble.
I want to say the mantra more and cultivate a more
loving, humble and grateful heart. Also, I would like to be present in the moment more and
to listen more attentively to others. I want to be more clear in what I am saying and less
defensive about criticism of me. I want to be better at keeping in touch with friends and
I would like to get a bit fitter and lose some weight as this would probably help with the
wonky knee I have.
I want to shine Divine Mother's Light to my family
and others by practicing and being a good example of divine Love.
Los Angeles, CA
Change, tell the truth no matter what, don't be
afraid, have courage and be happy.
To be able to share my feelings with my husband and
my family so I may be in the moment and make God first in my life.
Lee Ann Serizawa
Los Angeles, CA
To be a better mother, wife, sister, daughter,
friend, employer and citizen. And I will do this by cultivating a humble heart and giving
it to Divine Mother and Divine Mother Audrey. I will strengthen my love and devotion for God and shine
the Light to those that I come in contact with, by being a good example of God's Love.
Thank you so much Divine Mother Audrey for all the precious awarenesses and your pure unconditional
Los Angeles, CA
To be aware of and in touch with my inner self with
Divine Mother's assistance and to put God first as I go about my daily tasks and
To cultivate true love and devotion to God, thereby
enabling me to give out to others with joy in my heart.
Los Angeles, CA
Move to the forefront with my family and
specifically with my children; to speak the truth always; to respect myself; and to love
God with my entire being.
To keep speaking the truth; grow in deeper love and
devotion to Divine Mother; to keep doing my one-third and to keep getting my junks out.
Take more responsibility and lead a more disciplined
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|Jim Petroff at Easter,
By 1983, my thirty-five-year life had become filled with anger, frustration and confusion. I really needed God in my life, but didn't realize it. All I knew was that I blamed external events and people for all of my troubles. I had lifelong negative tendencies, such as a bad temper, putting my needs over those of others, quick reactivity, and a loose mouth without regard to how my words hurt others. These tendencies had brought problems into my second marriage and my heart to a state of despair. Through God's grace, this was the year that I met Divine Mother, who unlocked my heart to God's divine Love. She set me on this beautiful and often tumultuous journey back to my Godself.
I had a successful engineering career that led me from Ohio, to Los Angeles where I met my wife Jeanne, to Hawaii. However, only two years into the Hawaii job, my inability to react calmly to life's situations finally forced a resignation from my employer with no other job in sight. Anger hardly describes my feelings at that time—feelings of how I had been "wronged" by a job asking too much of me. I felt so worn down and stressed out that I needed a long break. I took a year off. It was during this time that I met Divine Mother.
At the first meeting, Divine Mother asked me questions about many things. She talked about Sri Ramakrishna and showed me a Time magazine article written about Him. We then meditated. Afterwards, she took my hand, led me outside, and said, "Look at the trees! Look at the sky! Look, everything has changed now!" Today, I can attest to the vast, comprehensive truth of her statement. In fact, I never could have comprehended a contented heart as I now have, while still living a full-scheduled, professional life.
During the years on this path, profound changes occurred in my life. However, I still resisted changing my self-centered behavior and reactivity even though my temper was much improved. I even ran from two more jobs. This slow-to-change attitude was very hard on Jeanne. Only Divine Mother's grace kept her from leaving me. Divine Mother knew exactly what I needed to make me get serious about wanting to change, and she brought me a strong experience in 1995. On a Saturday night at midnight, I had chest pains and 911 was called. Jeanne then called Divine Mother who told me over the phone, "This is totally a spiritual experience, so just trust Divine Mother's Love and grace for you." She arrived at our home as the paramedics were working on me. I will always cherish the memory of Divine Mother meditating on our sofa as the paramedics wheeled me out the door on a gurney to the ambulance. She stayed at the hospital with Jeanne for three hours and still held a group meditation scheduled for 9:00 AM the next morning!
All of this culminated in sextuple bypass surgery and, due to complications, lung surgery ten days later. Divine Mother visited the hospital twice more during my stay, though she carried a busy law practice at the time. She told me Divine Mother had given me a second chance. She said I must put God first in all things, change my old ways, show respect to Jeanne and others, and live right from then on. Divine Mother told me in the hospital, "I am pulling you to Spirit twenty-four hours a day." She put me into a spiritual cocoon and took away my worries. Throughout the entire bypass experience, I had no fear. No matter what happened, I knew that Divine Mother's grace was touching me and protecting me. In retrospect, I am very grateful for this tough experience and know that I needed it to evolve.
||Rest stop along a
thirteen mile mountain hike in Windward Oahu taken by Jim and Jeanne to celebrate the one
year anniversary of Jim's bypass surgery.
Late one night in the hospital, my pain became so intense that I asked Jeanne to call Divine Mother at home because I knew that only God could help. The tube into my chest, resulting from a collapsed lung, hurt so badly that I couldn't stand it and it had been the cause of five sleepless days and nights. No medications helped. After only ten minutes on the phone with Divine Mother, the pain disappeared and I slept through the entire night! There were other times that procedures should have been painful, yet through God's grace, I often felt little or no pain. I certainly experienced first hand Divine Mother's comment that, "Consciousness controls the body, not the other way around."
The bypass was Divine Mother's grace for me because it gave me a new commitment and gratitude to nurture love for God. Through grace alone, I've learned that putting God first, respecting others, and always coming from a place of love and kindness toward others is crucial to right living. Divine Mother's Light has transformed my heart from one of relentless rushing; lashing out, then making amends; self-centeredness; not respecting Jeanne, family, friends, the world at large and most of all myself, to a heart of love and peace. Divine Mother has brought me so, so far. I will always be eternally grateful.